I’m a nice, pretty easy going
person, always willing to look at all sides of an issue; comfortable in the
gray areas and rarely defined as a black and white kind of gal. Until this
month! I read that we are moving out of duality as part of the universal shift
and that made sense, however I was totally unprepared as to how that would show
up in my life as my ego has not been able to keep calm and as they say, just carry
on.
The past month I have had an
overwhelming anger that wells up inside of me. As I mentioned, I am very
amicable, always see all sides to an issue and diplomacy oozes from my
veins. But sometime during the month of
June, an ugly fairy, I believe it might have been Ursula, squatted on my chest
and allowed the ogre inside me to loom large. Normally if something is amiss I
have a way of cloaking it in a nice way and presenting a case where everyone
feels good about the issues, even if we are in disagreement. This energy I have
been experiencing HAS NO FILTERS! No more playing nice, in fact I can’t force a
compliment from my lips because the caustic truth is pouring out so fast.
Perhaps this is not such a bad
thing in the fact that I really have been able to cut to the chase in
discussions. However there haven’t been
many conversations because I have been such a nasty person nobody wants to be
around me! As you can imagine, much of June has been spent in silent
contemplation, except when the anger monster rears its head and I have to let a
little spew out.
As we move out of duality we
begin to see the expansiveness in all things and look to greater potentials.
That is why I was so perplexed that my journey was so fraught with
irritability. My guides explained it as follows:
When you move from a fixed position of duality into the realm of
infinite possibilities, the human side of you hangs on. It was the ego that was
hanging on for dear life, for it knows there is little room for it to act out
on the higher dimensions. Part of that ego expression was in the form of anger
at things that you felt were not correct or right on a larger, more universal
level.
You were not wrong in your assessment, for the situations were not
being handled correctly for the greater good. You actually were not coming from
a point of judgment but rather a point of logic and the higher part of you was
exasperated that those in question would not see the simple truth. The fact
that there were no filters was to show you how much you do soft-pedal your
conversations with others and to show how intense the truth can be. We see you
as coming to a point of non-attachment and balance for in the future you will
not mince words, but you will regain some of your softness in the delivery.
Thankfully the 20th was the
summer Solstice which marked the halfway point of the year. The past six months
have been a mish mash of releasing old ideas and paradigms while feeling stuck.
Currently we are in Mercury Retrograde which further mires us in stand-still
energy. There was a lifting at the Solstice, a clearing away and a heaviness
that was released for me. I felt it go and with it so did the anger. Last week
several situations came up that had been hot buttons previously and
interestingly they held little emotional charge and quite honestly I didn’t
really care anymore. My clinging ego was silent and I was back to a place where
I was easily managing expectations, by not having any.
As we head into the final half of
the year, we will continue the clearing of the past and letting go of anything
that does not serve us. During this time, don’t be too hard on yourself. Know
that every fiber of your being is going through transition and a lot of changes
are occurring that are not obvious to our human brains.
Staying flexible and allowing these shifts to
occur makes the ride easier. However do not get alarmed if you suddenly have an
attack of the uglies like I did. As the guides said, it is simply your ego
letting go and may be a case of the universe showing you up close and personal
the truth of a situation. Hopefully you will have loving friends and family who
will be willing to wait it out until the true you comes out on the other side.
A little more Ariel and less of Ursula is appropriate!
Since so many of you are being
challenged physically, spiritually, emotionally and financially, I would like
to offer my services to you from July 1st through the 27th
at a reduced rate. Readings will be offered at a discounted rate of $50
(regularly $100) and hypnotherapy sessions for $150 (normally $200). I have
taken more days at The Center for Enlightened Learning, so please e-mail me or
call to schedule an appointment. I will also do phone or skype sessions. This
is an excellent time to get clarity and to clear away old blocks that are
keeping you from living your joy.
Don’t miss the July 12th
workshop Opening to Channel/Meet Your Guides. This is an excellent way to get
in touch with your highest connections and lay a strong foundation to achieve
it. Pre-register for discounted price of $75, $85 day of the workshop. See side
panel and link for details.
Contact Becky:
770-778-2051
